wats the problem with the school...

THE PROBLEM WITH THE STUPID SCH IS THAT THEY DUN USE THEIR STUPID BRAINS!!! ARGH!!!! why didnt they teach thermo chem? ok.. if mr sia or anyone.. any teacher see this blog.. pls i beg u... stop making the mistake... for goodness sakes... pls dun teach food chem to the later batch... for goodness sakes...

why? cos i figured out a lot of things... electro chem... enthaply... EQUILIBRIA.... even chem bonding... WHY DIDNT THEY TEACH US THIS!!!! wah lao... argh.. i brain over load liao... NITEZ

hmmm mistake

hmmm... i seem to have been misguided by mrs lee... hmm.... it looks like democracy semantically is actually very gd.. china's communism is not totally communist... hmmm... since comunism seeks to remove any chance of ppl from getting profits.. but china's capitalism has democractic characteristics.. hmmm... interesting.. interesting.. very interesting... so china is not totally communist... its state capitalist... hmm... interesting....

aiyo one more complaint

I have a qn.. why is no one online? is everyone realli mugging away? cos if u are i'm damn scared lah.. i'm like not mugging!! now is no the rite time not to mug!!! shit.. and dun say.. aiyah... u smart mah... slapp u slapp u... bitch fit and slap u... not true lah.. i do a bit better cos i work mah.. ppl like hh then is smart.. haha.. and yk.. oh yah.. must add his link.. hope he dun mind.. hmm...

nothing much to say today.. was thinking abt skating.. cos a lot of ppl at my house there.. skating he.. skating there... laughing here laughing there... so noisy!!! but kinda must learn after As... haha.. hmm... NITEZ!

damn bloggers....

aiyo.. was reading the papers again today.. the stupid bloggers got another case of erm... insults towards muslims.. erm.. racism! thats the word.... haha.. oh well.. this time the guy is damn young like wat 17??? anyway... see him so unshaven and unruly.. like those rich bastards.. haha... go private school somemore.. haha.... actually... the ppl's view abt the muslim is already sometimes ah... argh... just because of a few bad muslims, the muslim community's reputation is down the drain.. the malays have a saying... "Sebab nila setitik rosak susu sebelanga" it means something like one small drop of dye spoils the whole milk yah?... there are plenty of gd malays out there wat!!! look at Ahmad... hmm... ok.. maybe i take that back.. HAHAHAHAH JUST KIDDING!!! haha... but yah lah.. there are plenty of other gd ppl out there.... why are we letting the bad one cloud our vision???

I was thinking.. wat makes a person successful... so i came up with this philosopy... (wah... i'm so idealistic yah? that will be:

THE SECRET TO SUCCESS LIES NOT IN THE MIND, BUT IN THE HEART...

which means that u can only succeed if u want to.. not if u can.. haha... because u always can! as long as u want it, if u want it very very badly, u can give up anything for it, u will get it.. haha.. how much can u give up? enuff? or is it too much.. think about it... NITEZ

argh... a day of argh!!!!

argh!!! wah kow.. today sian.. very wasted... went to orange grove.. orchard there lah.. to do the registration of the sat... guess what.. no one sign up!!! HAHAH... like mroe than ten went.. no one sign up.. double bish.. after thinking abt it, it wasnt such a good idea... hmmm.. i shldnt be taking to early... YZ LAH!!! tell me the thing is vaild for 5 yrs.. i was so excited.. haha.. in the end, valid for two yrs only.. so i guess no pt signing up yet... wait.. a little.. haha...

then argh.. haha.. ok.. this is a small argh... no lunch haha... so eat curry puff.... curry puff = high calories... = more exercise... but too late to exercise.. so guess what... eqn not complete... hmmm... no link.. bish bish.. mr lee style.. haha... i'm sure jm noes what i mean... think physics.. haha...

ok. i was thinking abt something today.. give me a min to recall... ok

one thing... dont u feel like any project is like a dam? if everything goes well, its perfect.. ppl go.. "wah... nice work brudder... u have a bright future.. u are goin to do well... come.. i give u more project.." but if there is this very small.. very tiny hole... then because ur worker forgot to patch up, the dam collapse? ppl go.. " KNN!!! wat the hell.. u bloody (*^*^$^%#)*#" thats like what i was thinking abt when i read the papers abt the cyber world thing... ppl never notice the gd stuff.. they are like magnifying glasses... zoom in on the bad stuff and like a pile of twigs, set it on fire... i dun think spore is goin to have a very easy time changing ppl's mindset abt our cyber industry liao... hahaha... see that $50 billion industry? yah.. watch.. carefully... ok.. ready??? go!!!! out the window.... bye bye... gone case.. i think the organiser? he can be in two situations.. one... his boss damn angry.. fire him... two.. his boss is compassionate... keep him... but due to his bad record, ppl dun wanna give him major projects.. so he must as well quit... haha... sad lah... he didnt mean to do it anyway... and oh yah.. that stupid china team? blame it on the organisers.. i was like wat the!!! no link? just because ppl didnt put in the measure, doesnt mean u can do it lah... just like... ppl didnt put a lock and shut ur ass hole... doesnt mean u can dig it in public rite?? ok.. erm.. expletive.. and bad analogue sry..... but i think u get my pt rite? dotz... ppl ppl...

aiyah.. i need to go... NITEZ...

new link

ok.. added this new link to my other blog... i put it under cromwell.. haha.. so yah.. if u wanna noe who is cromwell check internet.. haha

THATS ENUFF!!! and a very disgusting post

haha.. ok i have enuff again.. ok... a few ppl like to ask me qns.. thats ok u noe.. actually i quite like... cos i get to noe what i noe and dun noe also.. but hor.. I CANT STAND THOSE PPL WHO ASK LIAO THEN... "OH OK LAH.. NVM... NOT IMPORTANT..." haha... ok its not that bad lah.. i noe they sometimes just dun wanna waste my time lah.. and i'm not laying blame on them.. but if u wanna ask, ask all the way! learn from HF... she ask me how to integrate e^X^2... in the end actually the qn dun need... but she still ask me.. and now we both learn!!!! WASTE MY TIME... NVM... but its ok.. HAHA... anyway, it is a habit i feel needs to be changed lah... cos sometimes, the least important things become the most important things in times of need... realli.. i had to learn it the hard way lor.. so yah now i noe the truth abt knowing everything and anything....

OH YAH!! i was reading this bk.. and u noe what i came across!! ok.. to the gals.. if u are very sensitive, dunr ead on.. ok.. it will begin

DID U NOE THAT 2 MILLION FEMALES UNGERGO FGM? to the ignorant.... FGM is female genital mutilation... i was like oh my shit.. oh my tian.. oh my goodness.. oh my chem and physics and bio!!! gals can get circumcised!!!! OH MY TIAN!!!! i din noe that.. i was totally shocked.. but i was freaked out by the last part ok.. this is seriously disgusting.. well.. since mostly undeveloped counrties do it, the likely hood is that they dun use very erm... sophisticated tools.. so oh gdness.. this is what they do.. they shaft this erm... tool... up there and cut out the clitoris and the labia.. to find out more u can go http://www.innerbody.com/image/repfov.html.. and seriously, no anaethestic.. so its shaft and CUT... gd god... u have no idea.. it takes five ppl to restrict u... oh gdness... damn pain lah.. and CUT.. wat liao.. if thats not bad enuff, they sex the vulva up!!! wah lao.. like some hole u sew up.. damn shit.. thats damn disgusting.. and they leave a little hole for them to pee... oh gdness.... and when the gals get married and cut the strings off, it becomes so painful.. the sex hurt... gdness... ARENT U GALS GLAD U ARE BORN IN SINGAPORE??? dotz... and always complain abt the guys somemore.. no shame.. HAHAHA/// ucky no sch.. if not confirm get whack.. haha.. lavin hm jm and eric.. can read the book if u want.. the 50 facst one.. inside.. HAHA... disgusting!!!

oh.. i'm thinking abt setting up another blog to pen my political views.. haah.. may be i will copy a bit of ideas from places i have read so dun complain if it sounds familiar.. haha... hope u enjoyed the GFM... niteZ!!!

By request of eric

ok.. eric requested me to show my weight progress ok so i shall do just that

2000: fat like shit... 60kg

2003 STILL 60 kg... wah lao.. my waist was rounder then mabel's HAHA

2004: still round...

2004 after march: damn lose a lot of weight... what.. 57kg?

2004 sept: started weight training.. suddenly my weight ballooned to 62kg... wah!!!!

2005: STILL 62 KG!!! wah!! doesnt seem like muscle leh.. do i look bulky to u?? hmmm...

sianz.. need to work out more.. and eat.. eat more... on a 30%protein 20%fat 50% carbo diet...
trying to stick to it.. haha.. ok ok. thats it.. man.. SIX PACK AND TWO PEC BY CHALET!!!

Dun let ppl tell u wat u cant do

ok.. i've had it with ppl telling me wat i can and cannot do.. of cos not the things like cleaning dishes lah.. ok.. i shall explain.. a few days ago, i was speaking to this adult... hmm.. not related to me lah... so he asked me.. so what university do u wanna go to... i say.. NUS.. but of cos if i do somehow get a scholarship, i would realli like to go harvard or MIT or stanford lah... he paused for a while... wat abt other universities in france? germany? or how abt new zealand... i said no actually i'm not as interested in them esp if i need to learn another languge... then he said.. do u noe why i asked u? actually i noe lah.. damn obvious but i still said no i dun noe.. so he said.." oh cos those schs u said are very competitive u get my drift??" ok.. nvm.. so i replied" hmm.. u have a pt there sir. but i will have to read up on the other colleges before i make my decision... OK!!!! thats it... u do get the hint rite? it means..." aaron erm.. no offense dude.. but i dun think u can make it to harvard or stanford..."

ok thats it!!! enuff is enuff!!! i have been told by so many ppl i cannot make it.. do u seriously think i cant??? argh.. its a matter of whether i want to or not... as a matter of a fact, anyone can go as long as ur IQ is 100 and u are willing to work hard... thats the problem with ppl... in build with the wrong mentality... u are in SAJC means u are not up to the mark... NO!!! success is not determined by where u are... but how high up u are and how well u think u can go!!! so damn it... while i realli may or maynot be able to enter harvard or stanford now, i will make it there one day... take my cert there, earn one milion dollars, photocopy 1 million dollars worth of my cert and dump it in his house before he gets home.. MUAHAHAHAHAHAH MUHAHAHAHAHAHAH MUHAHAHAHAHAH MUAHAHAHAHA MUHAAHAHAHAH MUHAHAHAHA MUAHAHAHAHAH MUHAHAHAHA MUHAHAHAHA MUAHAHAHAH MAUAHAHHA!!!!! ok... screwing back the screw..... crank..

ok i was reading the news again today.. not much interesting.. tami flu blah blah.. only one article cuaght my eye./.. the philip yeo one.. yah.. he's the guy who said.. if u arent a top scholar in PSLE O LVLs and A LVLs, u cannot be a A*star scholar... yah thats the very cocky but very capable man... read thrg it.. can tell why he is gd lah.. he is realli gd.. i hope one day i can be like him.. minus the cocky part.. ok lah.. actually he's not THAT cocky.. haha... redeeming fact...

today my mom cooked curry... a bit the diluted.. HAHA... dun dare tell her... she ask me... " is it nice or not..." i reply" ok lah..." my dad look at it first thing come out of his mouth is... " You need to cook more lah! rice is burnt curry so dilute.. " haha.. ok to clarify.. my parents use a pot to cook rice so it can get burnt.. HAHA... liek when i burnt my rice HAAHAH... ok.. i need to go.. NITEZ!!

sad days mate

did u noe that 10000 pakistani child will die because winter is coming and they dun have enuff blankets tents or even food lah! for some weird weird reason, i started crying while i read the article lah... the world has contributed a grand total of 260 million dollars to pakistan.. u noe how much they need?? $5billion.. u noe why no one contributing? think abt it... why do ppl wanna help pakistan? they have only one thing.. oil... but u see lah... u suck up to pakistan u also cant get more oil cos they have reached capacity.. so why bother? money can keep in pocket.. yah yah.. sighz... and what i keep thinking abt is that u look at bill gates... he has wat? 200 billion? i noe that most of it is in stocks and microsoft.. but he did donate $8 billion... to what? to some crappy organistion.. and he cant even spare $1 billion to help the construction of pakistan?? thats seriously wrong...

The next thing i was thinking abt is how much of society has been teaching us the wrong thing! u noe what i consider the worst advice to give any adult? " dun live ur life for others" hello... knock knock... up there that thing between ur ears... is it working? cos seriously, do u think that u dun live for others... u wanna make ur customers happy.. to make ur boss happy... so he give u money... then u will be happy... think abt it.. u are making everyone happy so that U can be happy... and i ask u... hello?? if ppl dun like u, how are u goin to live UR LIFE??? UR LIFE?? u NEED to make ppl happy... so what the saying shld be is " live ur life for others.. so that others will live their's for yours..." think it thrg it makes sense...

And another thing taught wrong... " money is the root of all evil" hello... knock konck.. there working.. man is the root of all evil... do u noe what speaks in the world? money and power... thats all there is to it.. money and power... OK!!! STOP RITE THERE!!!! WHY DO U ALL THINK THAT SOUNDED BAD??? cos we have been indoctrinated with the idea that those two things... are BAD! but wrong.. if i had the money and power, i will be helping those 10 000 kids!!! its not what is bad in the world... but who.. and the sooner we learn that, the sooner the world will progress... stop teaching us the wrong things!!! teach us the rite things.. teach us to control ourselves... thats the really rite thing to learn..

lastly... wc... i ask u ah... u how to press the prawn??? the prawn got shell!!!! u go supermarket u want the shell one u noe see fresh or not??? smell and color... not fresh it loses its shin... and btw the head one is not bad.. wah..praises.... okay lah... let u pass the housewives test lah.. now can be huang lan po...HAHAAHAH just kidding..

james blunt.... sighz

ok let start with today wat i did...

morning wake up eat blah blah blah until 12 erm.. tat includes studying.. shitting.. blah blah..
got to sch by 1pm... then got mrs lee's lecture... HAHA lecture cos she tok for like wat 2 hrs? i did learn a lot lah.. but it was A's IRREVELANT so i was kinda like dotz... not too happy... haha.. but aiyah its over!!! anyway, she misunderstood me.. its not that i'm pro america, but the fact that america's culture is much to be desired... haha.. realli.. the less conservative is perhaps more appealling then the traditional... but just dun like their policies yah?

ok then we went for lunch... on the way, we were chatting lah.. erm.. tok abt how many gals like rich and liked alex... HAHA... aiyah... shallow shallow... lol.. gals and guys arent very diff yah? verbally... oh we are not shallow.. but secretly they are lah.. not completely shallow, but to some extent... ok.. so we went to hawker centre eat lunch lah.. a very late one i might add... so ok.. we were toking toking.. and we came to the topic abt gd looking guys.. haha... u noe rite, i was thinking to myself if handsome ppl NOE they are handsome.. or at least gd looking... so bla blah, i casually asked god.. what do u think? and obvious he didnt boom from the sky and say.. yes... or no.. he made me wait.. as usual... so we begin toking abt eric and he was saying he wasnt!!! AND THATS WHEN GOD ASNWERED... haha.. cos eric realli is not bad looking.. erm.. no offense dude... just a bit short... like me lah... HAHA... and then i noe.. yah.. gd looking guys dun always noe.. sighz..

ok the interesting part... so we went back after that... wah.. ok.. after jm alvin and eric left, the next stop, this cute little thing came in.. ok.. she's not very little lah.. i think abt my height.. maybe taller (ARGH!!!!!) so she was realli realli very very realli very chio.. wah lao.. pink top... IPOD NANO!!! wah lao.. realli.. so ok.. she very studiously took out this book and started to do work.. yah.. lucky i also doing physics tys.. HAHAH... so once in a while i will "look up"... think... think... look at her.. look down again.. HAHAAHAH.... ok.. i must clarify at this pt.. i'm not ti go... just that i'm sure anyone will do that lah,.!!!!! ok anyway, i reached my stop at pp... and then i did something i never thot i would do... i didnt get off.... !!! HAHA... just to catch that one more glimpse, i got off at the next stop.. HAHAHA... so did she lah.. but i controlled the urge to stare.. HAHA... wah lao... suddenly.. out of no where!!!!

"my life is brillant.... my love is pure.... i saw an angel of that i'm sure... i saw her in an MRT... she wasnt with another man... but i dun noe what to do.. cos i'll never be with you.. sighz.." HAHAHA

ok.. thats quite drama.. but it sorta happened lah.. hmmm.... haha... ti go peh.... HAHAHA... NITEZ!!!

hmm.. someone say my mortal cute

HAHAHA.... wg just said someone said my mortal looks cute.. ok.. erm. NO OFFENSE GAl... but yah lah. u are gal gal kinda cute lah.. haha... but u are still my cute little mortal... (shivers...) HAHAHA... dun kill me..

Oh.. haha.. did u noe that in thailand, porn means family? HAHAHA... thats quite ironic.. i mean.. family porn?? haha.. ok.. oops.. sry.. sensitive issue.. lucky no thai frens.. if not i will get whacked... AHAHA...

hmmm... ok this sucks man... read the papers today and a few things caught my eye.. erm.. firstly, yah.. actually i quite respect saddam's courage.. he is quite an admirable man in terms of his defiance.. but wisdom and courage comes hand in hand... his foolhardy aggressiveness is not goin to lead him anywhere and his insistence that he is still president always makes me laugh... HAHAHA... admirable.. but foolhardy.. thats what i think..

ok.. then also, they said something i so totally agree with.. the american culture is much to be desired... i think in terms of today's world, americ rule the world.. not just interms of military might, but because of its popular culture.. it holds a sense of just, a sense of fun, a sense of work and a sense of fulfilment for the ppl in it lah.. and that is a gd thing... but its american policy that is not gd... america's insistence on having things its way is deeply concerning... and i think they realli are damn scared of china.. their reactions to china is not very erm... secure? erm.. they dun feel secure i mean... haha.. its like... " oh china... yah yah my frens my buddies... wats up man..." but behind their back is " SHIT china goin to rise liao how how?? erm.. i noe! heighten ppl's attention to china's lack of communication skil!!!" haha.. futile... but they cant possibly do nothing yah? HAH....

wah lao.. haha.. i just saw something i dun noe if i shld say a not? hmmm... may hurt someone's feelings.. erm.. better not lah yah? haha.. if not that person call ppl whack me i die... HAHAHA oops.. tok too much liao.. NITEZ

what is singaporeans becoming man

aiyo... do u wanna noe wat is wrong with the service nowadays? very simple... in the pst, ppl lived a harsh life... u dun have much to offer and dun have much to give.. but now.. just look at us.. we are so affluent and wealthy that we have become pampered.. erm.. i noe it may sound wrong, but there are two ppl who we are programmed NOT to blame precisely because they ARE to blame... Firsly, our parents... due to the small family thing, our parents now treat us like gold encrasted diamonds... so we get the best of everything.. secondly, the government is to blame albeit unwittingly... they have firslt, mplement the two child policy with of cos as we can see, is so succesful, it has become over successful... sianz..

the consequence: we have become so materialistic and narcissistic that we have lost our moral footing in society.. that led to ppl giving poor service, ppl feeling ang moh are better and ppl being disrespectful.. and i must say.. that guy who wrote into the forums abt the pregant lady being wrong to want a seat, seriously dude.. u need to think it thrg again.. u have to stay up like wat.. one night at most one wk.. the lady has to carry the baby for 9mths leh... which is worse.. dotz...

we really need to wake up and do something abt it.. sighz.. but what can we do?? i dun noe.. will think abt it and see how... damn.. suddenly i want the scholarship so bad.. then and only then can i truly do something abt all the problems i see... haiz...

oh... have u realised that all successful businessman statesman.. blah blah nvm start out with a selfish reason? yah think abt it... LKY didnt start out wanting to be PM... Bill gates didnt wanna be a multi billionaire... hmm.. thats something to think abt.. haha... think abt it... NITEZ

i wanna be a toliet cleaner

haha... today class went to eat... SUPPOSED to go and eat... in the end. we walk here, walk there... walk everywhere.... except anywhere.. hahaha... go orchard wanted to eat sushi.. we met with yizhi there... i was like.. wat the.... one bowl of rice.. $2!!!! plain rice somemore... i was like.. wah lao.. wg told me.. haha.. unless the rice is like mixed with abalone and cooked for like 2 yrs, he wasnt buying it.. HAH... i couldnt agree more... haha.. dotz.. so in the end they say... we go wheelock place eat lah.. ok.. got saki suchi mah.. ok.. walk walk.. walk there... "sry the buffet begins are 3pm" WAH LAO!!!! dotz.. ok.. nvm.. we go meridian eat... there sushi also got buffet... so we walked.. ALL THE WAY TO MERIDIAN... guess wat... NO SUSHI!!! ARGH... bish.. crap.. bang.. die... wah lao.. 3plus and we haven eaten.. argh!!! haha.. so we settled for food court.. haha... oh well.. i enjoyed the food court.. ate a lot.. like one grilled chicken set, some of ant's soup and the japanese chicken set.. wah lao.. think of it hungry liao.. haha..

ok.. so as we were walking to meridian, i was chatting with wg.. he was saying that he prolly enlist in march so he was wondering what to do. maybe get a job. I was telling him... "can u guess what job i will take?" he repiled jokingly... " toliet cleaner" i was like yah.. REALLy... if i can get a chance, i wanna be a toliet cleaner.. for a while lah.. not career.. haha... i noe u must be thinking.. aaron's just studied too hard and went bnkers.. but no realli.. i mean, have u ever thot abt them?

Toliet cleaning is a socially shunned job.. like ppl look down on them lah.. come one lets face it.. u wouldnt wanna be them rite? exactly. i wanna noe how its like. esp since ppl will think.. wah.. wats a young nerdy looking guy like that cleaning the shit out of the toliet bowl.. hmm.. how would they feel? how would U feel? and how would ur frens feel if they saw u??? Dun u think we live in a very cynical and shallow world? i wonder how would it change me? will it humble me? it will be very interesting.. extremely interesting.. and to prove we live in a shallow world, i give u an example... when alvin theard me, he told me.. why not u work in a factory? the working conditions are better and the pay is better,,, seriously, thats not the pt.. i would work for just my transport fees... but it does show how materialistic the world is becoming.. talking abt hat! i'm goin to write in and suan the fellow who scolded the pregant lady who complained for not being given a seat.. what the... wats wrong with young ppl these days ah??? no moral standings.... NITEZ

WOAH... variety of stuff to say

ok.. firstly.. sry ms kok... dun be angry anymore ok?? i was just kidding! u were doin that to me too.. haha.. and i'm not some kiddy little boy.. argh!!! just trying to be more sensitive to you.. even though firslt u dun deserve it and secondly u dun like it.. i think.. haha... I THINK... thats the link... haha

secondly.. yippee i'm goin into army on the 6th jan 2006... hopefully is Alpha company.. then can say.. " hi i'm aaron.. yesh thats correct... its spelt alpha alpha blah blah blah.. haha... " ok.. no link.. dun care.. haha.. but i thnk ppl must be wondering.. wah kow.. this guy is mad.. ppl wanna get out he wanna get in.. he's crazy.. erm.. my reply is pretty long.. basically, its not the suffering... seriously, if i wanted suffering i just like cut myself everyday.. no its not!its the bonds and frenship u get, the fact that u have to respect authroity and the discpline in life.. i mean, the army is almost everything i hold up for. u are serving the country, in a close knitted "family, u have to be self-sacrificial and u have to be clear headed and quick thinking.. thats like noble, challenging, tough and lets face it lah.. the exercise is very healthy rite... i'm goin to make it career if i can lah! haha.. but only if i can get into ocs.. yah.. thats OFFICER CADET SCHOOL...

thirdly, i thnk ppl dun noe how shallow the world can actually be.. u may not realli think the world is superficial until u meet the realli mean ones.. haha.. ok.. someone (not goin to name names) told me the other day that ppl arent shallow.. i was like seriously... u are sure... cos i have been at the receiving end for a damn many long yrs... thats why i work so hard lah.. to disprove something that i have only been able to prove so true.. sighz.. i think few ppl have any idea what its like to be passed over.. to be picked on.. to be laughed at... not because u realli are irritaing.. but just because u are an easy target.. and there is something abt u that ppl just dun like.. haha... ironically, its not realli that bad.. steeled me up a bit.. thats what realli made me focused i think... still, its hard to be unaffected.. or acting unaffected...

fourthly, hmmm.. the H5N1 virus is seriously becoming a danger.. hmmm... the many problems that the world faces, does show one thing, singapore is an incredibly protected country.. we are hardly affected.. u got see the newspaper? one page say "the sail oh.. wah.. ppl buying ah.. ppl paying millions of dollars".. on the other(or a few pages away), ppl are dying in pakistan.. ppl are dying.. H1N5 virus spreading into romania and no one has enuff vaccines.. sigh... wat the crap.. i wonder if singapore has a problem, are we realli able to face it? i think we shld be... why? cos we are small.. and a million other reasons.. but its too long to type.. hmm.. gd AQ pts.. haha...small is gd isnt it? lucky eric.. haha...

fifthly, i sometimes get quite sad when i see the papers... so much hurt and pain and suffering.. i wanna do something abt it.. i realli wanna.. and while age shldnt be a problem, it is... i wanna work for the civil serivec.. i hope to be able to do something for the ppl.. even if it were just in singapore.. i noe i sound very idealistic.. but if i haven leaent anything else, i have learnt this... hope is not non-existent. its just lost. and if we just try our best.. just try to find it, we can find it.. i did... and i will again.. NITEZ

IT WENT PUBLIC!!! (actually this is just to suan KOK)

ok.. so my blog went public.. supposedly... only.. ms KOK here went there... oh gdness... her... where shld i begin?? if i started with the bad stuff... i may hit the word limit of the blog... and the word limit is unlimited.. HAHAHA.. so i will start with the gd stuff... ok.. give me a few yrs to think abt it first.. HAHAHAHA... ok.. i will apologize tml... HAHA..

Ok. so my blog just went IPO... but only to ppl who noticed.. to those who didnt.. oh man! i missed like the greatsest blog on earth.. HAHA.. ok. to noe who has been here, pls tag ok.. TAG.. i'm serious... so i noe who to whack if someone is back stabbing my blog!! HAHAHA!! ok... blog more tml... NITEZ

TO THE FUCKERS OUT THERE

TO THE ASS HOLES WHO TOLD ME I WOULD NEVER MAKE IT... EAT THIS:

this is the academic record of my life:

Primary 6: PSLE 226----> second last in class.. u can eat my shit man!!!

Secondary 2: 42 in level...

Secondary 3: 38th in class...

Secondary 4 middle yr: 16th in class

Secondary 4 prelims: 10th in level

O's: 7th in level---> thats in a band 7 school

Promos of JC: far far away...

Prelims: 6TH IN SCHOOL!!!! U CAN KISS MY SORRY SCRAWLY LITTLE BUTT!!!!

Ok.. to those who see this, pls dun spread abt... its more like for memory.. haha... not showing off...

haha.. in ur faces u assholes.. kiss it man!! haha.. today i'm very vulgar cos my hatred for those ppl can finally be unleashed... yesh! i've done it! i will do more in the yrs to come.. and i will kick some major butt!!!

A SAINT NO MORE.... BUT A SAINT FOREVER (after 12 long yrs)

ok done

ok now its no longer registered users... u all shld have told me sooner....

disappoint sadness and happiness

ok.. something happened today but i rather not tok abt it lah.. haha...

YAY! today went to buy gifts for the gals..

CHERYL AND HUI PING : SCENTED PILLOWS

PINYUE AND OLIVIA: SCENTED COW AND PIG SOFT TOYS

WEN HUI: NECKLACE... hahaahahahahahaaha hint hint

YIZHI AND HUIFANG: CAPS hf"s one damn ex.....

LILI, SUSANNY, YULAN AND WEI CHEN: WINNE THE POOH CHARACTERS

SHI HUA AND BEI NING: MOMMY DADDY GLASSES!!!

nice rite? of cos.. hahaha


ok wanna say man! xh noes a lot of my private stuff... haha... hmmm.... BETTER KEEP THE TRAP SHUT DUDE!!! but it is nice to have someone who can undersatnd... esp since he is an only child... what happened to ahmad man!!! shld i make it a rule that anyone who comes to the blog must tag??? tag ur comments!!! or comment ur comments also can!!!

YAY!!! I did it!!!

ok man!! today i learnt that i have accomplished what i had always set out to do in JC... and i did it!!! yippee... its a very great personal achievement.. even if i wasnt truly authentic... oh well... now we live on and move towards the As...

Haiz.... two more days.. i think very few ppl truly understand the pain it feels to leave sa like me... the SAS guys esp... we have stuck thrg thick and thin in this sch... it is wat we call home... and there is this love for it... even though we sorta hate it as well... but i mean, this is where i grew up.. where i belong... i fell down here... i picked myself up here... where i was fat stupid dumb ugly weak.. and where i also was strong smarter better looking and slimmer.. its where my love is and where my heart stays... and to leave it, bring me a sense of sorrow and worse... a sense of lost... suddenly everything i knew is goin to change.. i'm not goin to be a saint must longer... and in a way, god is now making me more independent... there wont be some place to turn to, no one to lay back on... its me and me alone... and it kinda makes me feel more lonely then i have ever... sighz... and life goes on....


I saw alvin's nick today... he said that he would give up his sanity for grades.. i was like... haha... i wonder how many ppl are willing to exchange lives with me... and if they did, would they wanna exchange back?? i think they would.. you will be surprise at how much i have lost... haiz... sometimes, the trade off just isnt worth it... but like i always say... its not a choice anymore... its an inevitable...

i was thinking also whether i believed in fate... well.. i can seriously say NO! fate is a loser's way of surrenderring... and damn it.. if i had surrended, if i had resigned to my fate, i would be here today... i turned a fucked up low ass life upside down and inside out.. fate is what u determine. its what u make.. and fuck it... i have learnt the true power of the mind... the power of wanting something so bad.. u will give up everything for it.. and i will accomplish greater things in life.. if not because i'm fated, then because i make it that way...

I leave you with a little quote. one that i have lived by for a long time unwittingly... its by achilles in troy: " i want what every man want. I just want it a little more..." more... thats what i want... NITEZ

A promise kept...a sorrow wept

Ok.. i promised XH that i will tok abt something today.. so today.. my blog will only be talking abt it (or her)... hahaha!!!

Ok. whats so mysterious? haha... i was telling xh that the odac guys shld each pick up one gal for grad nite... and be her escort... not date.. haha... so he replied and said... " well.. that settles for u and me" HAHA.... u noe he settled for who lah.. so yah... he's booked! so is she... haha... and as for me? i think everyone knows he was hinting abt bacca lah... ok... divert for a moment..

My fren was asking if i still liked becca... i replied... its bacca... she was like.. how come her name so different... and i replied... everything abt her is different.. i will elaborate more abt that later... so she said... but she's attached leh... usually the ppl who are attached are offlimit.... so i replied... sighz... thats why i pretend like nothing like that lah... haiz...

Now thats where the problem lies... she is so... so... so,.... cool and classy.... i mean... I told her not to dao me if she rejected me..( which she very obviously did... but very irritatingly did it in a way that only made me admire her more...) but now, look at that man! i feel so memerised in her presence that sometimes, i drag myself away from her.. haha... sounds like infatuation... yah.. probably... and she is like so treat me so friendly... SO FRIENDLY!!! no discomfort... no coolness... no arrogance.. nothing leh... i cna seriously say that few gals can have that maturity and strength to do that leh (even if she is acting that way)... thats wat i so like abt her... but unfortunately, she's taken... lucky bastard.. and even if she isnt, she wouldnt be with me... why would she... there are guys who are a thousand times sweeter, nicer, smarter, richer, handsomer.... with her character and grace, she can have any guy she wants... and lets all face it... do u seriously think that the shows are real? that if u persist, u will get the gal.. that some miralce happens and u heroically saves her? or boyfren broke up with her and u SO happen to be there? come on... i noe some think that i'm being pessimistive.. but there is a fine fine fine line btwn that and realistic.. and seriously.. i cannot totally cannot ever imagine her and me together... maybe ironically, like the shows always say... "for her sake, she deserves better." thats why i dun want to take her to prom. becos i dun want to carry on lying to myself that some miracle will happen.. that the impossible is possible...

i think the song "where are u" by soluna has a lot of meaning...: "i noe there's someone out there. I noe she's waiting so patiently. Can u tell me her name? this life long search is just driving me insane" Some how the one will be there.... and yes there is this hope lingering in me that she is... but i dun think so... nvm.. life must go on... even.... even.. even... if love nevers....NITEZ

finally

finally the stupid problem is cleared! damn irritating.. ok.. haha.,. and my fever is over.. ovr over!!! back to sch today.. but pretty waste my time so tml not goin! haha NITEZ!

hahahaha..... guess what.. fver now... wah lao.. the most stupid thime to get a stupid fever... now how to study for As??? haha... lcuky its far from the exams.. if not jia lek lah... haha...

woke up today very very tired and giddy... shld have known beta... scuker... haha... wc having some stupid blog problem now... hopefully i can show my "manliness" and solve it for her... ok.. that was being supa sarcastic... hahaha..... she wont say.. so nvm lor... haha

ok.. enuff for today liao.. very sick... prayz for me k?? NITEZ!!!

Econs talk and more

ok man... today woke up damn early for the econs talk... haha... quite informative lah... but frankly, it doesnt realli make much sense for ECONS.... so haha... wasted if u were plainly goin to improve the As lah.. but haha... lucky i have some concepts abt the marketing and the economy so i can relate a it better to the subjects that they were toking abt... like why is manufacturing not selling the product, but selling the service that the products bring.. MARKETING PLAN HURRAY!!!.....

ok.. then today after that, we went han's eat... wah lao.. walked and walked and walked... in the end, ending up in marina sq... but the worst thing is that the steak was small, the soup was little and the table was incredibly small.. so i cant say i truly enjoyed the $7.50... haha.. then on the way back,we begun toking abt something. I was quite embarassed. I mean, Alex had 2, Rich had plenty... and yz had at least one lah.. i had none.. i was like... wah.. lucky they never ask me.. i think they also noe that i dun have thats why don want to pai seh me and ask me.. haha.. quite sad... maybe thats wat's been bugging.. sighz.... nvm.. hopefully i will have at least one soon... gtg... NITEZ