success or failure

ok..just a quick thot that popped in my mind.. wat determines success and failure? is it hard work? is it intelligence? is it luck or is it fate???? thats a qn that everyone asks rite? I think i figured it out... the most successful successes are born of pure desperation.. think abt it... creative? DELL in a sense... and academically, look at the scholars... think abt it carefully.. of cos there are ppl who didnt, but yah... its ur opinion....

stupid lah.. again 5 mins to blog only

ok.. have five mins to blog and get back to my studies.. haha.. ok.. so wat shall i say? well the wk's been bad.. on schedule, but then again, i dun have on... HAHAHAH... but YESH!!!! today i got to play bball.. yesh!!! laid up a couple of times... although my foot steps were wrong, but its a great improvement k!!!! usually i just shoot one.. just practise a bit now will be beta... actyually i think i rather keep my wrong stepping... while it may not look nice or it may not be the ideal, but i would have one advantage if i retain it... ppl cannot predict wat i'm doing.. and in a game like bball, that a very gd thing.. so hopefully... HAHAHA... today damn farnioe... ALEX!!! haha.. the two of them (alvin and jm) come and block me.. i also dun noe for what.. i'm not a gd player so one shld be enuff... so i lobe the ball over them and pass to alex.. he damn far from them lah... they also cannot be bothered to go back and grab the ball... so ales take his time... aim.. bounce.. jump, lay up....

And then he hit the rim and the ball bounce off... We laugh until we fell down... damn farnie lah.. somemore he always like that one lah.. when u less expect him to fail, he fails.. hahaha.. sucker... but i must say he is one great guy lah.. maybe not towards gals lah.. but he can tolerate all of jm's nonsense.. sometimes, i realli just wanna whack jm... but nv lah.. i noe he liddat one.. so its ok... but he can tahan... thats a very special attribute... not that i'm gay lah.. but thats like another gd pt that i can learn from him.. tolerance... and he also takes things in his stride... haha

Ok.. next thing.. some thing strike me today i cant quite remember.. i noe i wanted to put it on the blog... erm... aiyah.. cannot rememebre lah and anyway no time to write it down.

ok.. so yah... tml and wed not coming sch.. fri see how lah... my mood... no choice... i need to finoish up my work asap.. if not i jia lek... haha... hoping praying... ok shit.. exceed by 7 mins liao... NITEZ

JUST A QUICK UPDATE

Ok, managed to squeeze in sometime for a quick update.. yah.. must say everything is goin ok.. so far... doubt i can finish everything but i think i can finish most.. haha... MAN!!! bought this like $20 prelim book.. rushing thrg it.. one paper (full) in two days.. haha.. hopefully it will help me with my core subs.. thats maths and physics lah.. and i think shld noe why lah.. HAHA...

Oh boy.. i finally understand why god like put me thrg all this love shit and stuff.. and then make me pai seh and stuff.. haha.. now i know... god is mysterious yah? after yrs of those stupid experiences, they finally come in handy.. haha.. guess what, i'm not the only one!!! haha... actually i knew that long ago lah.. but its like i'm some "how to reject nicely" and "how to accept rejection well" guru. HAHA... ok.. thats an exageration... maybe i can understand ppl beta so i can give them a listening ear lah... hahaha... shld write a book after As... " HOW TO ACCEPT REJECTION LIKE A MAN!!! --- and cry like a little baby after..." haha... confirm millionaire... hahaha... then again i probably be rejected by the publishers!!! HAHAHA... :p

Ok.. pls god.. guide me.. and give me strenght to carry on... let me move up and further in life.. and give me confidence and hope.. help me thrg it all.. and that i have knocked and the door shalt be opened for me.. NITEZ

LONG TIME!!!

LONG TIME NO BLOG LIAO!!! I HAVE MISSED U,.... ahaha.. actually i wanted to blog for a long long time lah.. but lazy.. haha.. and mugging hard.. actually i have quite a lot to say lah.. but i dun have much tiem.. say abt 5 mins before i have to go so just a quick update...

ok.. i realli have to say that the Presidential Election was such a let down.. i could have had a holiday lah!!! but no lor.. the PEC HAD to get rid of the other three ppl. Although it does seem true that the othe candidates were definitely not up to the mug... ESP the Andrew Kuan. WTH... he's relli thick skinned.. haha... while his performance was not exactly the poor, it was unsatisfactory... so yah i support the PEC's decision NOT to allow him in.. HAHA... he deserves it...

ok... next thing is the damn scholarships.. wth!!! all of them are from top schools... how can i possibly compete?? i cant... not in sch at least... i need another route in life... maybe i wont enter the SAF after all... i have this thot that i'm still pondering abt? is it true that u shldnt enter public service if u dun have a gd scholarship from them?? u think abt it... the chief of air force, navy and army were all SAFOS scholars.. wth!!! what if i dun get it? where will i be? i think they cramp all the LSA and defence scholars in the other top post lah... then i waht? pour their coffee? no man!!! i want more... argh!!! maybe i join the private sector... i dun want money.. i want challenges.. satisfaction.. i want more... argh!!! I need god's help... realli... need it a lot... enuff for today lah.. gtg... pray for me man!!! esp ahmad... pray to allah to guide me too!!! (not being offensive.. i'm serious...) NITEZ!!!