WOAH... variety of stuff to say

ok.. firstly.. sry ms kok... dun be angry anymore ok?? i was just kidding! u were doin that to me too.. haha.. and i'm not some kiddy little boy.. argh!!! just trying to be more sensitive to you.. even though firslt u dun deserve it and secondly u dun like it.. i think.. haha... I THINK... thats the link... haha

secondly.. yippee i'm goin into army on the 6th jan 2006... hopefully is Alpha company.. then can say.. " hi i'm aaron.. yesh thats correct... its spelt alpha alpha blah blah blah.. haha... " ok.. no link.. dun care.. haha.. but i thnk ppl must be wondering.. wah kow.. this guy is mad.. ppl wanna get out he wanna get in.. he's crazy.. erm.. my reply is pretty long.. basically, its not the suffering... seriously, if i wanted suffering i just like cut myself everyday.. no its not!its the bonds and frenship u get, the fact that u have to respect authroity and the discpline in life.. i mean, the army is almost everything i hold up for. u are serving the country, in a close knitted "family, u have to be self-sacrificial and u have to be clear headed and quick thinking.. thats like noble, challenging, tough and lets face it lah.. the exercise is very healthy rite... i'm goin to make it career if i can lah! haha.. but only if i can get into ocs.. yah.. thats OFFICER CADET SCHOOL...

thirdly, i thnk ppl dun noe how shallow the world can actually be.. u may not realli think the world is superficial until u meet the realli mean ones.. haha.. ok.. someone (not goin to name names) told me the other day that ppl arent shallow.. i was like seriously... u are sure... cos i have been at the receiving end for a damn many long yrs... thats why i work so hard lah.. to disprove something that i have only been able to prove so true.. sighz.. i think few ppl have any idea what its like to be passed over.. to be picked on.. to be laughed at... not because u realli are irritaing.. but just because u are an easy target.. and there is something abt u that ppl just dun like.. haha... ironically, its not realli that bad.. steeled me up a bit.. thats what realli made me focused i think... still, its hard to be unaffected.. or acting unaffected...

fourthly, hmmm.. the H5N1 virus is seriously becoming a danger.. hmmm... the many problems that the world faces, does show one thing, singapore is an incredibly protected country.. we are hardly affected.. u got see the newspaper? one page say "the sail oh.. wah.. ppl buying ah.. ppl paying millions of dollars".. on the other(or a few pages away), ppl are dying in pakistan.. ppl are dying.. H1N5 virus spreading into romania and no one has enuff vaccines.. sigh... wat the crap.. i wonder if singapore has a problem, are we realli able to face it? i think we shld be... why? cos we are small.. and a million other reasons.. but its too long to type.. hmm.. gd AQ pts.. haha...small is gd isnt it? lucky eric.. haha...

fifthly, i sometimes get quite sad when i see the papers... so much hurt and pain and suffering.. i wanna do something abt it.. i realli wanna.. and while age shldnt be a problem, it is... i wanna work for the civil serivec.. i hope to be able to do something for the ppl.. even if it were just in singapore.. i noe i sound very idealistic.. but if i haven leaent anything else, i have learnt this... hope is not non-existent. its just lost. and if we just try our best.. just try to find it, we can find it.. i did... and i will again.. NITEZ