ironies of life

I took my S papers becos i wanted to be a scholar... when i got my results, i was happy... i didnt do as well as most scholars, but i was proud to have achieved what i did, becos i knew it was with the pint of sweat that i saved the gallon of tears... and isnt it ironic... some ppl want my marks.. but the qn is wat real value does my marks hold? they show neither strength nor character. Instead, they hold a pressure and stress to perform and excel... i applied for a lot of schoalrship.. and all i need is one.. the most crazy thing will be that they will want interviews... so many interviews.. non-stop... i already have two on one day!!! its gonna be crazy.. crazy totally.

My dad just asked me why i dun wanna go overseas.. i dun realli noe how to tell him... Living in Singapore will let me do things that i nvr had a chance... To meet and stay with the frens i have... To enjoy an education that can still meet inernational standards... To learn abt the country i call home.. to do things i have nvr attempted b4... i lost all that to mugging.. and i dun wish to waste my time travelling in and out of the country... i want a balanced life that i noe i cannot achieve overseas. its not that i dun want to give it a try.. but i cannot afford to give it a try... it is not a chance i am willing to take, to fail... maybe for my masters or something i will go.. but for now, i dun think i can go..

i think its quite funny life.. life.. makes u wish u were on the other side. Sometimes, i wish i didnt work so hard... didnt take s paper... but i chose a hard way... i dun noe how it will turn out... and in a way thats gd cos it will only spoil the fun... One day it will turn out fine.. one day it will turn out alright.. i know god has shown me that life moves down many a path. But they always lead to the same destination. BUAIZ