fearful of what tml will bring

tml i will go to a very stressful, challenging and painful place... it will be suffering. it will be hell... it will be the place where only cocksters survive... i realli wonder how will i survive? i noe its the frens, but the thot of the pain and suffering that realli bugs me.. not the physical pain of cos.. that i can withstand.. its the mental pain... more specifically, the very high lack of slp.... my weaknesses are the dark and slp... night is like sacred to me i guess.. but then again, night is when the enemy loves to strike. i will have to adapt...

i realli dun noe what to say.. u noe my fren said something that kinda stuck to me.. "when u are crawling in pee and shit, its nice to have a gal. Cos at least you noe there is something to keep you goin in hell..." i sure as hell couldnt disagree with him... it may seem like love struck and stuff but some times, when i do those pumping when i get tekan.. when the scream in ur face, i wonder why i'm doing all these.. what light is there at the end of the tunnel... i dun noe.. but i think i'll just get to the end and find out what the light is?

CYA all 9 mths from now.. hopefully, i would have lasted that long.. BYEZ