a saint.... forever more...

today, the SAV is complete... the school i so dearly love.. has finally come home... i can still remember the days i had... when i was just this small little boy goin to school with an oversized back pack.. and a ton of books in the bag... there i met some ppl like yk brandon yd ben lee... ppl i have called frens for over 12 yrs... man.. thats damn long... realli miss them.. realli miss the class.. the times we shared..

now, sch life is over.. for now.. next 2 yrs, army... and looking back at the 12 yrs i have had in sas, i feel somewat happy and yet sad... seeing how much i have grown.. and how much i haven.. haha.. i wonder... where will i be goin in the future.. when will i do the things that i will do... what are the things that i will do.. life is so uncertain.. and yet uncertainty is life... somehow it seems that life is never smooth sailing... and the rough waters are never ending... but somehow we always get thrg it all..

one day i know it will be all worth it. u noe i realise that i'm not goin to do great stuff.. i'm not goin to be on fortune magazine.. nor am i goin to be some great adventurer.. i'm just goin to be me... plain old me.. somehow.. it doesnt feel that bad either.. haha... i MUST learn to brighten up... i dun noe when i started building this emotionless wall arnd me... like i dun allw myself to say thx... or welcome or things like that... cos i always got bullied in the past.. haha.. damn.. sucks to be fat.. and dumb.. haha... have to change.. have to change... NITEZ