SUNDAY!!!

HAHA.... today.. sunday... woke up at like 930.. supa late.. for me lah.. although most guys waste their mornings away in slumber land.. haha i usually wake up at 7-8... finally got down to planning my studies... then i was like... WTH!!! which idiot in MOE came up with the idea of having students revise 12 topics in one wk??? yesh.. thats how many topics i have to accomplish EACH WK.... for the NEXT 9 WKS... man goodness lah... they are crazy... if i could study 12 topics in a wk, i wont be here rite?? BUT!!! (seems like thers always a but...) love the challenge.. i noe if i can do it.. i can do well for As... so must work hard hard and harder...

Mugged the whole day away.. so haha... not much to write abt today though... haha... so time for my philosophy section of my blog... Why do I mug so hard.. haha... tats what my fren just asked me today... whats my motivation... i guess i always tell ppl that its because i noe that my future depends on it lah.. i mean thats true... i realli do believe in it... but, there's more to it than just that... U see... i'm a born loser.. realli... u shld see what shit i've been thrg in Primary school. i was a FUD... FAT... UGLY... DUMB... realli.. and though they think i dint noe, i do.. they always despised me... even the teachers... how i noe??? the stares? the mummuring... yesh i'm dumb... but i wasnt a moron... the big blow came in PSLE... wat the hell.. i got 226... its a HUGE blow when u were aiming for 286!!! stupid man.. sigh... thats when i realise that if i didnt do something abt my life, i'm goin to be in serious shit... So i shaped up in secondary school... Not in size lah.. but in brains lah... worked my butt off to get into the top class and worked that over worked butt to get into top ten in my class... did it in the end.. was top ten in the school!! yesh!!! then i came to JC... for the first time in my life.. i felt that i needed to do something abt my weight... my fitness... so i ran like mad... exercised... my life was basically running for the first three mths... until i got down to my present size!!! And that made me feel so gd!!! so what drives me on?? the fear of becoming a loser again.. thats what drives me on... and no one will understand unless they've been there.. no one.. haha...

As for the ugly problem.. well i dun realli regard myself as hideous ugly... just not gd looking ugly.. haha... well there's nothing much i can do abt it rite?? in a way its also a gd thing lah.. u see.. so many ppl are so shallow.. for me.. i noe that at least the gal who likes me will like me for who i am and not how i look like... Blessing in disguise?? maybe not lah.. probably more of a silver lining in each cloud... haha... NITEZ