Flu Blues

Aiyo.. today... flu... got it from somewhere... haha... onli person i noe who has it is wc lah.. but doubt she is the one... i'm so weak man... cannot fall sick.. not until As are over... must be able to go to school... thats why i pity yd.. he got chicken poxs and liddat ah.. he missed a lot on sch work... haha... too bad lor... as for me, fever lah.. last nite a bit the cold... even with blanket.. so no choice.. haha... took a beaflu and tried to slp...

Then this morning, got the physics s paper training. aiyo... kinda wondering what i got myself into.. its realli tough... can hardly do it lah... dotz... but must press on... i think i can forget abt my scholarship liao.. haha... no skills... no brains.. no looks.. take what scholarship... will also help to ease some of the pressue of my back... just aiming to get four As can liao.. haha... oh yah.. and i dun noe anyone there other than K7.. so haha... kinda boring and weird... haha...

Today was thinking abt what i've missed out becos of mugging... sighz... u noe how they always say that study is the most important?? i realli wonder how true it is... basically i have nothing to compare it to lah.. so i dun noe... i feel kinda like tired of studying... i mean.. if u do it for like 1 or 2 yrs, its ok lah... u can still carry on.. but like now its extending into its 4th yr... getting drier by the min.. and the amt of information i have to cramp is enormous... totally unforgiving... i dun realli have a choice lah though... must study... so yah.. hopefully i can acoomplish what i need to... just three four mths maybe?? it will all the over soon... I'm not afraid of NS... in fact i think i love it.. haha.. not the pain or the suffering... no i'm not that sadistic lah... its the impression i give ppl though.. i dun realli like the pain... what i do like is the company and the joy of sticking together thrg thck and thin bah... true bonds are forged in that way.. realli.. i noe... all in all... just have to carry on mugging lah... no way out of that...

Was reading the news just now... the London bombings realli bothered me... i noe we cant expect complete peace in the world lah.. but sighz.. so much chaos... all boils down to religion.. how long will it take man to see that the church or the koran or whatever for that matter doesnt realli matter?? its man made... god is god... he doesnt need to use man to tell us... he IS telling us what we need to noe everyday of our lives... thrg what we do... what we see.. what we experienced... when we open our eyes one day.. we will finally learn that religion is but one thing.. and onli one thing alone... the love of god... that day will come.. i'm sure.. but it wont be anytime soon.... sighz.... Nitez...